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Eels slithered from my cigarette the morning of my first smoke. Entangled souls bled dry. To love from a distance for so many years feeling so accomplished and confident as a lover playing all those games as someone new, only later to be faced with a mirror. Now you must love yourself how can you after so many years of practicing as someone else?
Sadness crept up from beneath me in late hours of night it reached up and clasped from within and ripped me down into myself. Eat your pain Eat your sadness. that is all that remained.
We walked later that day green devoured and conquered all that was displayed, he sang songs to the leaves and the trees and the water. He found a buried dollar we both wanted to get lost but thought there’d be a better place for this. Such a sacred space. Overwhelmed by so many memories in such little time. Don’t talk take my hand and listen to my heartbeat.
